Finally!

Every night i've been trying to get on here before I go to bed because by the end of the day, I am just full to the brim of emotion. But the silly connection just wouldn't let me load up my blog for whatever reason.
Anyway.
Now i'm here.
Christmas day was very very hard. My mom just wouldn't stop screaming at Kaley and I. We made a big Christmas dinner and had to hurredly eat it because the family arrived and they didn't want to eat with us. So we had to hurry up so that they could entertain. I just wanted to cry. My mom has been horrendus. The party yesterday was okay. I hung out with Kaley's friends and just played the 'cool older sister' and got them drinks and stuff. It was nice to be around people. Mom was crazy again though. The things that come out of her mouth sometimes are just awful. I made a speech in front of everyone. I just told everyone how much I loved her and got everyone to raise their glasses. Very un-me and very awkward, but I did it for her.
And today has been a slow day. Tidying. Lots of talking. I'm missing him so much. Everyday, it's just getting harder. I left some silly mis-spelt facebook status last night that was for him, but I deleted it out of embarrassment this morning.
I don't know what the plan for the rest of the day is. I'm feeling poorly, but the house is so full of people I haven't got a chance of getting any rest! Fallout it is...