Why am I recording this?

This is the worst day of my life.
I feel like I want to die. My brain, is so emotionally exhausted.
Staring, at the man that I love, attatched to a thousand machines, wires in and out and everywhere. Fast asleep. Not responding to 'life'.
You have to see it, to begin to understand what I feel.
I want to give my life to him. I want to take his place. He must have all of my energy.
I love him so much. Compared to this emotion, those words are empty.
Please God. Please don't take him away from me.
I don't think anybody understands how much that boy means to me.
I pray that I don't get a phonecall in the night. I shan't sleep, that I know. But please, no phonecall.
Just give ME some peace.
Let my boy rest. Let my boy recover.
I promise, that I will do everything that I can to take care of him. I promise.
Amen.
Please, please. I beg of you. With everything I have, everything I am. Please don't take him away from me.