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I have read, and re-read my previous two entries.
You know, tonight, I haven't laughed that hard in a very long time. But now, I really feel that same division between 'the outside' and 'the house'.
I have not been myself today. Whatever myself is, I have felt far more down than usual.
You know what. I can feel myself crying. I am just lost for words. Sometimes even the worst nightmare just doesn't compare.