I should be asleep. I need to sleep.

Oh God. How do I even begin to describe what I am feeling? What I have discovered. I am a sandwich. Three molecules, seperate, but together making a 'human'. Vessel, mind, and essence. Those three things are supposed to be melded into one to make said 'human', but mine have drifted apart. I am my essence and I am concious of all of this, but without connection to the other two parts, it is useless. It is like screaming into a vacuum. My body is continously exhausted and run down and desperate to sleep and be at peace, but my mind just wont stop. It wont stop chattering and my essence is stuck, crying. How the hell am I supposed to explain this to a GP, the only person who can make me gel again. Nobody understands. Nobody.