Psychology

I officially throw my towel in.
The past couple years, have been a long and futile effort to try and maintain some control over my mental health.
But at the end of the day. I lose. Because the government say that doctors have only a small quota of patients that they are allowed to diagnose and medicate.
And I'm fucking fed up with trying to make the cut.
So tomorrow. I will tell the doctor exactly what he wants to hear.
I will allow him to take me off of all medication. And I will convert to my 'normal out of control' state.
I suppose it's because I don't scream for attention that I will kill myself 'unless' that I slip under the radar unnoticed.
God help me that I don't become another statistic.