Quandry

I've been keeping my head down.
I don't want to hear other people's opinions on my situation, because i'll only disagree or get upset. So I haven't asked, and I haven't searched.
But today, I stupidly let my guard down. I read an email that my nan had sent to my mom. Only to be nosey because she always makes some remark about my mood and excessive spending, yada yada.
And as I scanned through, I read, 'I hope that you can convince Kim that Ben is a dead loss....'.
I stopped reading after that. It was enough. One bullet usually is.
I just. I can't figure out if it upsets me because deep down, I know she's right.
Or because I know she's dead wrong.