The tightened sock around my arm

Seriously 1am?

Are you sitting comfortably? I'm not. I think I'm sitting on a phone. But the stream of thought is too great to stop. Even for a second. I shall sacrifice my own comfort for the sake of the empty blog that no one reads...

Tonight's quandary is love.
You must understand, that this is all coming from someone who is both naive and completely uneducated on the matter of biology. But nonetheless;

LOVE.

What on Earth is it? I mean, it's an emotion, I get that much. But, anger is an emotion. Sadness is an emotion. And these are helped, if not controlled by chemicals in your body. But where does the love chemical come from? There isn't one. So what the hell is this emotion. A person of my age, stereotypically, should be using this time to 'party' and 'meet people' and 'FUCK LOTS OF PEOPLE'. But I am so infatuated with a boy. I LOVE him. I want to MARRY him. I accept him for all of his faults and I still think about him constantly and wonderfully like a princess thinks about her prince longingly all day up in her castle. But why? Who, or what decided it was him? Was it fate? Did cupid literally shoot an arrow into my arse when I first set eyes on him all those years ago? Or is it just this incomprehensible force around us that leads me to these uncontrollable feelings I have for this boy. Personally, I believe it's all three.
But my point is;
If it really is this unprovable, invisible 'energy', then what others are there out there?

Oh I love him so much. Love love love. It's a stupid word that has lost all meaning. How can four letters describe what I am feeling?! Of course it can't!

I could even equate this to the comparison of - what is God? This energy, this unprovable, invisible, incomprehensible energy that cannot be described or explained in three letters.

Chew on that bitches.